There are two music artists who I am currently very much admiring right at this moment, & they have become quite a bit of an internet infatuation of mine recently. One out of these two artists, in particular, has captured my attention intensely. He’s an extremely talented percussionist guitar player, a bit too young for my age, but on the inside I don’t feel like my actual age whatsoever, so that’s how I justify my admiration for this artist.
I have been following not Insta-stalking his social media pages recently, & have become a moderate fan of his music. I would really like to get to know this person on a deeper level, since he only shows the very serious/reserved business side of himself in public interviews & on social media. I would genuinely like to talk with him one-on-one & get to know him personally, hopefully form some sort of friendship or personal association.
This artist seems so unique, interesting, & complex from the tiny bits of information he reveals about himself every once in a blue moon. It would be incredibly interesting to learn about his points of view, especially from a foreign perspective & understand his personality. (Side note: this artist is from an Eastern European country.)
I truly admire this artist’s talent & skills when he plays so passionately on his guitar. He really blows me away with his musical abilities. If I could describe him simply, I’d say this artist is like the guitarist equivalent of world-renowned pianist Lang Lang. He also just seems like an overall cool person to be around. So, talking to him would be something I’m very interested in at the moment…not some historical figure from the past, or a politician, or a Hollywood mega-celebrity; just this guy, with his unbelievably stunning acoustic guitar, his amazingly 1990s hairstyle, & his well-manicured hands of gold. That is all. Cheers.
Change in environment freaks me out. It makes me feel anxious & very unsettled. That’s probably why I am a creature of habit. I watch the same TV show episodes & movies over & over again, & don’t really look for new things to watch. I do all of my daily routines in the exact same order every time. I like things to (mostly) always stay the same.
That has also trickled down in to my little bean’s life as well. She eats roughly around the same time everyday, takes her nap around the same time daily, & bathe around the same time before bedtime as well. This has programmed her body to naturally want to eat & sleep around the same times every day. While these habits are good to build structure in my little bean’s life, it also provides a sense of comfort for me as well because I know what to expect each day.
Tomorrow Jian & I have an appointment to take a tour of a potential daycare facility we might want our little bean to start attending. My mom has been hounding pushing us for months & months to send our little bean to daycare. She & Jian have both been pushing the narrative that our little bean needs to learn to interact more with other kids her own age & not stay cooped up in the house all day with no other kids to play with. However, I also know that they want a break from our little bean, so they have time for themselves.
Yes, it is important for our little bean to learn to play with others & interact with kids her own age. She needs to develope her own social skills & become more independent, but I’m terrified to let her go. Sending our little bean to daycare, even if it’s once or twice a week, scares me so much. I am having a very tough time coming to terms with letting her out of my white knuckle grasp.
Our little bean was born during the height of COVID-19 pandemic lockdowns. For the past 2 & a half years, she has always stayed by my side, & I was able to use the pandemic as an excuse to delay the inevitable…sending our little bean to daycare or to even hire a babysitter for a couple of hours. Just thinking about it sends alarm bells ringing in my head.
I have not been able to stop overthinking about tomorrow’s appointment. I know we are only going to take a tour of the daycare place. Who knows if they’ll even have availability for our little bean to go there. However, this kind of major change in her life & in mine, it freaks me out, & I don’t know how to cope with my anxiety.
I understand that I cannot keep our little bean locked in our house forever. I will have to let her grow up sooner rather than later. I am just overthinking things. My heart will break seeing her cry & cling to me as I drop her off at her future daycare place. I will also feel super embarrassed to see all the other parents glare/stare at me while my child throws a fit as I drop her off; the whole time I will be thinking internally that the other parents are judging me.
My mind is racing even as I am writing this post. The more I think about it, the more my thoughts become illogical. I think I should stop this post here for now. Until the next post, cheers.
What Olympic sports do you enjoy watching the most?
Amongst my family & friends, I am an avid watcher of the Olympics. Summer, winter, you name it, I am watching it. Now, I don’t follow every popular athlete or sport, & I don’t watch the entire competition from start to finish. There are a few select sports I watch & athletes I follow a tiny bit outside of the Olympic Games. However, I will not, under any circumstances, miss watching the opening & closing ceremonies in their entirety, as well as dissect each & every performance. I LOVE the opening ceremony the most out of the entire Olympics.
Ok, so I was prompted to talk about my favorite sports during these Games. In terms of Summer Olympics, I love watching all the main water sports, even though I myself do not enjoy physically being in water. For example, I don’t like to swim (or lay on the beach), I have never rowed a boat of any capacity, & heights freak me out, so diving is out.
However, I still enjoy watching other people in the water doing sporty things. My favorite water events are: individual swimming, group relay swimming, solo & synchronized diving, & rowing. The other non-water events I enjoy are: men’s/women’s gymnastics & all the track & field events. Pretty much everyone watches the Summer Olympics just to tune in to the gymnastics parts ’cause sports media is always hyper focused on whose going to be the next Simone Biles.
When it comes to the Winter Olympics, I enjoy watching most of the skiing events & now some of the big-time snowboarding events as well. Some of my favorite events are: ski jumping, moguls, all the downhill or whatever you call the events Mikaela Shiffrin/Lindsey Vonn competes in, & the events with the fancy tricks. This applies to snowboarding as well. I enjoy watching those athletes do the most impossible tricks on what is pretty much a wheel-less skateboard.
I’m not a skier or snowboarder myself, although I have tried skiing when I was a young child. My dad helped me learn some basics, but ultimately decided that skiing was too dangerous for his fragile daughter. So, I ended up not taking an interest in skiing like my siblings did. Instead, I turned my interest toward ice skating. I was pretty good at it too, & took a couple meaningful years of lessons, but did not advance enough to learn how to axle-jump or spin.
Which brings me to my next favorite event. My mom & I are huge fans of the figure skating events during the Olympics. We love watching individual men’s & women’s competitions, ice dancing, pairs skating, & now the team event. That’s pretty much our favorite part of the Winter Olympics. We get really into it too, dissecting all of the judges’ scores & all that.
On top of that, I love watching some of the sports that my family finds to be weird. I love watching all of the bobsled, luge, & skeleton events even though Jian thinks they’re boring, & my mom finds them too scary. Every time I watch the Winter Olympics, I’m always crossing my fingers, hoping the Jamaican bobsledding team will win a medal. Hey, I can keep my movie dreams alive, right?
I also enjoy watching curling. Nobody in my household, except myself, enjoys ice bocce with Swiffer brooms. However, I’ve just developed some strange fascination with this event. I know it can be pretty boring to watch, but it’s fun to have this as background TV noise while you’re cooking or working.
When it comes to cheering for athletes or teams, I tend to cheer for the underdogs or standout favorites. I don’t always cheer for my home country’s team. I like supporting athletes or teams that win in an event for the very first time. Those moments are some of the most fun to watch, or even the ones where a veteran athlete wins that one elusive career medal before they announce their retirement.
When I watch an Olympic Games, I try to really watch from a fan perspective & not make too many political judgements. I know it’s hard to separate what you see or read in the news about certain countries who host Olympic Games from the actual Games & its meaning of clean sportsmanship. I had a hard time watching the Summer Olympics in Brazil after watching so many news clips about all the displaced impoverished citizens of Rio de Janeiro. It was hard for me to see all these beautiful scenes in the Olympic village, while knowing that just over the brick wall is a slum city & government officials are constantly downplaying the severity of that public image.
I really try to enjoy watching the Olympics without too much judgement going into the Games. It’s fun watching this sporting event happen every four years (or every 2 years if you’re watching both summer & winter). Lately, there’s been quite a bit of news about the decline of the Olympic Games, & many major cities dropping out of hosting the Games. I will admit that those news stories kind of dimmed my interest in the Olympics a little bit, but I still get excited every time I see a commercial for the upcoming Games on TV, & cannot wait to watch the next opening & closing ceremonies.
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