List three books that have had an impact on you. Why?

Ok. I am going to keep this post relatively short, at least as short as possible. I feel like I babble on too much, & get totally off track from the main topic. So, I’m supposed to list three books that have had an impact on me. It’s hard to narrow down my (not-very-extensive) list down to just three books, but I will try. Um, do Japanese comic books count?


This was the actual cover of the edition I owned as a child.

I read the book Harriet the Spy as a young pre-teen, generously gifted to me by my dad & his Book-of-the-Month club subscription. At first, I started reading the book because at the time my dad was nagging me to get into the habit of reading books like he did, & he wanted me to take more of an interest in reading instead of watching so much TV. I just wanted to get him off my back, plus I had nothing else to do in my room, since my parents would not let me have a TV or a stereo in my room like my siblings did. Little did I know, I would eventually fall in love with the character Harriet M. Welsch.

This book, at the time, really inspired me to start writing. I really wanted to emulate the book’s main character & write down absolutely everything happening around me & everything I saw. Of course, I was also going through some faux angsty phase, & I mostly wrote in my journal about how unfair my parents were being & how mad I was at them. Still, this book really shaped my life as an amateur writer. I don’t write down everything about other people. Instead, as evidenced by this blog site, I write down everything about myself. There is one other thing, however, that I’d like to mention. This book never got me to try tomatoes. I didn’t discover the deliciousness of tomatoes until well into my adulthood.


I still haven’t watched the movie adaptation of this book.

Hector and the Search for Happiness was a light & happy read. I really connected with the main character Hector & his quest to find the meaning of happiness. At first, after reading the book, I thought to myself that I might want to try my hand at studying to become a licensed psychiatrist, but I decided against that notion, because I realized that I had to root out all of my own personal issues before I could diagnose & sort out other people’s issues. I’m not a particularly complex or troubled person, but there are some things rooted in my life that deserve more than a few family counseling sessions.

Reading this book had me assessing all of the things in my own life that made me happy. I was surprisingly impressed that I matched up with most of the observations listed in this book. I genuinely felt, & still feel, happy in my life. I was emitting happiness & attracting happiness in many aspects of my life. This book helped me to realize that even those that appear to be happy on the surface could be struggling with finding their inner happiness as well. That thinking gave me much needed comfort. As I’ve gotten older, I have learned to not compare my happiness so much to others’ happiness.


I read Bringing Up Bébé while I was incubating my offspring. I have to confess something. I originally bought this book because I wanted to become a very informed woman before I ever got pregnant. Also, I was attracted to the colorful book cover. I was thinking it would be a long while before I ever got pregnant, so I bought this book for some future I never expected would happen so matter-of-factly.

This book helped me understand so much more about motherhood that I thought I had already figured out from my many previous years of experience in childcare. I had already thought that I was pretty well-equipped to become a new mother. I mean, taking care of other people’s children for so many years of my life really gave me a sense of experience; that is, until I read this book. This book really taught me a lot about having to be very flexible, not having to compare your child-rearing with other people’s experience, & not to worry about meeting age guidelines/expectations.

I highlighted so many passages from this book, it practically looks like a school textbook. I even tried to make the book’s gâteau au yaourt (yogurt cake) from its recipe. This book answered a lot of my lingering motherhood questions & somehow calmed my fears. I would definitely recommend this book to any lady who wants to get knocked-up & procure a tiny human beean into existence. This is a really good book written by an anxious mother to other anxious mothers, in the tone of an anxious mother, not the tone of a college professor, or stuffy parenting expert, or certified pediatric doctor.


This was the actual cover of the edition I owned.

I know I’m only supposed to pick three books in this post prompt, but I couldn’t leave out the book Battle Royale by Koushun Takami. I watched the cult classic movie adaptation of this book & its widely panned sequel Battle Royale II: Requiem before I ever read the book. So, I already knew what the story was about. I had seen the first movie at the request of a close friend of mine during our first attendance to an anime convention. We both fell in love with this movie, & subsequently returned to the convention the following year dressed in cosplay costumes of characters from the movie.

DISCLAIMER: NOT A REAL GUN! This was an air soft toy gun.

Reading the book gave me more insight into the storyline, rather than only watching the movie itself. Yes, I loved the movie & understood its meaning, despite the bloodiness & gore being the center of everyone’s attention. However, I felt more deeply for the characters while I was reading the book. I would read this book on the subway during my commute back home after work. I would get so engrossed in the book that I’d almost miss my transfer station.

This book, Battle Royale, taught me the meaning of friendship & how much would I sacrifice to protect a person I loved & cared so deeply about, also about trust & loyalty. This book also taught me that cunningness can be both an intelligent trait as well as an evil trait, & that you don’t have to “play the game” to win the game. Having a pure & honest heart can really guide you down the right path to freedom. Yes, sacrifice is difficult, but also necessary. To this day, I really, genuinely, wholeheartedly value & cherish my close friendships. I have a few different groups of friends that I am close with, & we all would throw down for each other if necessary. We are each other’s tribe.


Ok, this is the last one. I promise. I know this isn’t technically a book, but I still read it, & it still impacted me. I have never been a fan of the fantasy or sci-fi genre ever in my life, until I read this 漫画 (manga/graphic novel) series called xxxHolic. I stumbled upon this graphic novel series, not knowing it was a parallel storyline & companion series to another graphic novel I fell in love with called Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle, which was a spin-off series to my favorite 漫画/アニメ (anime/manga) series Card Captor Sakura…& all of these different series were created by the famous artist group called CLAMP. I swear things get less complicated from here.

I fell in love with this graphic novel series from the moment I read the first page. This book taught me so much about Japanese culture, tradition, & folklore…better than any textbook or historical novel could. From the moment I started this series, I couldn’t put the books down. Some of the volumes I have read more than once. This book, just like Battle Royale, taught me about trust, loyalty, & friendship. On the flip side, it also taught me to respect the afterlife. I am re-reading this series again, just to refresh my memories of this storyline & to re-ignite my passion for reading graphic novels again. I hope I can glean some new insights after reading this series again & be able to apply it to my life.


Until the next one…I am now currently packing to head back to Los Angeles for the weekend. One of my cousins is throwing a 100 Days Celebration party for her newborn son. My little family unit will only be down south for a quick weekend getaway. I am trying to get Jian to save up all of his precious few vacation days for our ginormous end-of-the-year family trip overseas to Japan. Jian & I haven’t been back to Japan as a duo since 2013, & I, personally, haven’t been back since 2016. We haven’t seen my relatives in years, & we would really like our little bean to meet the other half of her extended family.

I have not been this excited to go on a trip or vacation in a looooong time, & I am super pumped. However, in the back of my mind, I honestly wish we were vacationing somewhere in Europe, somewhere we’ve never been to before, instead of always defaulting to Japan or China. Yeah, I know we have a lot of obligations to pay a visit to our extended families in Asia, but I wish we could sometimes take these precious overseas trips to visit somewhere new rather than go back to the same places.

No matter what though, I am extremely grateful that we can even afford (in various ways) to travel at all. I will never take any trip/vacation, no matter how small, for granted. So, I’m going to enjoy this little weekend jaunt to Los Angeles with my little bean, & that’s all I’m going to say about that. Until the next one, cheers…

Today’s song of the day:

Who would you like to talk to soon?

There are two music artists who I am currently very much admiring right at this moment, & they have become quite a bit of an internet infatuation of mine recently. One out of these two artists, in particular, has captured my attention intensely. He’s an extremely talented percussionist guitar player, a bit too young for my age, but on the inside I don’t feel like my actual age whatsoever, so that’s how I justify my admiration for this artist.

I have been following not Insta-stalking his social media pages recently, & have become a moderate fan of his music. I would really like to get to know this person on a deeper level, since he only shows the very serious/reserved business side of himself in public interviews & on social media. I would genuinely like to talk with him one-on-one & get to know him personally, hopefully form some sort of friendship or personal association.

This artist seems so unique, interesting, & complex from the tiny bits of information he reveals about himself every once in a blue moon. It would be incredibly interesting to learn about his points of view, especially from a foreign perspective & understand his personality. (Side note: this artist is from an Eastern European country.)

I truly admire this artist’s talent & skills when he plays so passionately on his guitar. He really blows me away with his musical abilities. If I could describe him simply, I’d say this artist is like the guitarist equivalent of world-renowned pianist Lang Lang. He also just seems like an overall cool person to be around. So, talking to him would be something I’m very interested in at the moment…not some historical figure from the past, or a politician, or a Hollywood mega-celebrity; just this guy, with his unbelievably stunning acoustic guitar, his amazingly 1990s hairstyle, & his well-manicured hands of gold. That is all. Cheers.

Today’s song of the day:

Change in environment freaks me out. It makes me feel anxious & very unsettled. That’s probably why I am a creature of habit. I watch the same TV show episodes & movies over & over again, & don’t really look for new things to watch. I do all of my daily routines in the exact same order every time. I like things to (mostly) always stay the same.

That has also trickled down in to my little bean’s life as well. She eats roughly around the same time everyday, takes her nap around the same time daily, & bathe around the same time before bedtime as well. This has programmed her body to naturally want to eat & sleep around the same times every day. While these habits are good to build structure in my little bean’s life, it also provides a sense of comfort for me as well because I know what to expect each day.

Tomorrow Jian & I have an appointment to take a tour of a potential daycare facility we might want our little bean to start attending. My mom has been hounding pushing us for months & months to send our little bean to daycare. She & Jian have both been pushing the narrative that our little bean needs to learn to interact more with other kids her own age & not stay cooped up in the house all day with no other kids to play with. However, I also know that they want a break from our little bean, so they have time for themselves.

Yes, it is important for our little bean to learn to play with others & interact with kids her own age. She needs to develope her own social skills & become more independent, but I’m terrified to let her go. Sending our little bean to daycare, even if it’s once or twice a week, scares me so much. I am having a very tough time coming to terms with letting her out of my white knuckle grasp.

Our little bean was born during the height of COVID-19 pandemic lockdowns. For the past 2 & a half years, she has always stayed by my side, & I was able to use the pandemic as an excuse to delay the inevitable…sending our little bean to daycare or to even hire a babysitter for a couple of hours. Just thinking about it sends alarm bells ringing in my head.

I have not been able to stop overthinking about tomorrow’s appointment. I know we are only going to take a tour of the daycare place. Who knows if they’ll even have availability for our little bean to go there. However, this kind of major change in her life & in mine, it freaks me out, & I don’t know how to cope with my anxiety.

I understand that I cannot keep our little bean locked in our house forever. I will have to let her grow up sooner rather than later. I am just overthinking things. My heart will break seeing her cry & cling to me as I drop her off at her future daycare place. I will also feel super embarrassed to see all the other parents glare/stare at me while my child throws a fit as I drop her off; the whole time I will be thinking internally that the other parents are judging me.

My mind is racing even as I am writing this post. The more I think about it, the more my thoughts become illogical. I think I should stop this post here for now. Until the next post, cheers.

Today’s song of the day:

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